Friday, April 12, 2013



In my dreams i wrote a million worlds ..
I walked around the sea shores of Indian Ocean..
and stars watched me from the skies and whispered
Yes.. we are here and take enough light..
Delighted i started writing a million more words...

From a distant land, from  terrains i heard shadows whispering . They spoke to me like  stars but squeezed out the sparklers of my bright eyes and walked back leaving my lamps to die a death without any light..
I was taken aback..but  never gave up that i did not want  my dreams to die a death in  cold morgues ..
Let me polish my lamps and fill oil 
I told to myself and when i spoke i heard a parallel voice from the street across ....
Cats were not my friends but one fat writer with permed funny hair all around her face, the one who looked like abloated potato tried to exaggerate a story because of her  ignorance and wrote about cats as if her face got bloated up in one cat fight.. 
Seriously i dislike people like that..Not honest...Not sincere..
In my beliefs a writer should not sell in that way to please a lobby. A writer should be honest to his/her soul.. 
To please someone this bloated one wants to speak about cat as if writing like that way she achieves some greatness. People who created cat calls and crows talks from talks about tolerance and many qualities a human should possess..
In my dreams i know how a writer should be..
a writer should be like a beautiful poem...
I screamed at a few hypocrites because they tried to write like the ones who try to please the underworld..
My inner self  warned me several times and the god from the temple of my origin, in dreams told me first to stop fighting but when things turned in a way that the offenders acting as innocent show case charmers and the my inner soul was brutely wounded my god  stepped down from his sanctum and said.. FIRE..
Fire what??
the ignorance of the literate..
Yes... he said...
Do that to hold your dreams for sure otherwise they ransack your dreams to dust and walk away as if nothing happened.
I did... 
Not alone.. there from the mystical fragrance of sandalwood i felt a hand extending great support and in Kurukshetra i stood alone without having any battalion and i never counted numbers..
From the face masks i have learned a lesson that wearing a mask got its own advantages and disadvantageous..You tried to fool me in one mask and i stopped believing you when your mask fell and i gifted one to Gayatri  to wear it when the invaders exceeded their limit..

I wrote back to the ones who tried to disfigure my earthen boundaries...In limitless ocean shores i walked  to find a way to escape and in my escape routs i found my dreams.. poems. Humans dismantled my earthen frames, tried to slice my soul, auctioned, wrote stories as if it is their ultimate right. I held my dream so tight, so close that i drown not in the spins of a river. Even on the blanket of hard feelings i wrote.I learned at the end that my dreams are like poems i cannot detach me.. I have turned more strong not to run back from the ones who wanted to hurt me..      

Saturn shedding tears in cosmic paths but  i take in hand pure earthen raindrops.. more like me.....


Monday, April 8, 2013


From the Promontory of Indian Ocean  I could see the rock monument of Swamy Vivekananda

All on a sudden It rained  clearing all colours from the evening sky..

Centuries spoke to me in soft voices and a diamond sparkled my poetic dreams . I thought for a while about the Greek Traveller Pausanias who identified the deity of Oceanid, daughter of Ocean, of Greek Poetry.

I opened my poetry book and wrote..

Sea of life whispers 
in my ears
and in horizon
who writes a poem
an eastern star of autumn?..
Listen,  seasons
i am here with rains 
of monsoon and flowers
from my central garden
listen, in libraries i sit
to erase all my deepest
which fall against
my eastern shore...            
let me fill fascinating facts
of this world  
in my souvenir...
Listen, i am going to write

I watched in amusement.  How can I describe our cosmic universe..  From one parallel world why i wonder disgusting memories walk towards me.   I wanted to walk back to my ocean shore but couldn't as the sketches of tides against me was so provocative.

There again a storm…

He my eternal enemy by choice of time has created a comic sketch again to show case  his present mind stream.  I wondered why on earth we should sing our National Anthem in a different style and why I should see the comic sketches of ignorance again and again..

Yes, he is a changed man and his new face depicts not his original soul. He changed on the surface to create a great feeling of goodness and struggles to wrap up his uncovered original self. It is difficult but he has to do that. He needs to create comic sketches as and when necessary to prove that he is indeed happy and he never was happy like this in his life- a lie he wants to tell again and again to spread across a message to the people who watch him in close quarters.  In truth he is disturbed and to cover his disturbance he talks and acts in a new style that he wants people to believe him. He acts indifferently but in heart expects a storm less  ocean  for his paper boats to sail trouble free and a few beautiful seashells as gifts (for him to refuse if sent) to soften his ruptured ego. That is not happening because the ocean is roaring in front with real anger on his unpardonable actions.  He knows exactly what he did in rage and he knows that how to drape the wrapper of escapism. In a way the comic sketches he creates speak that he is insecure and does not want  to lose the reward points of ink drop support . He secretly wishes that how good if he does not walk on the escapist theories but cannot step down from his ‘impressing the world art formulas.’

Off late I had to encounter with him again which I thought would not happen. If he would not have sent that do evil frames from the do no evil banner holders i would not have bothered about even his presence or absence that i have made my mind in such a way that to tune numb to the ignorance of the great wisdom preachers.  I understood that he wanted to create situations that the ocean in me should encounter with him and he at that time should act as if he got only National welfare in his head streams.

Good Ideas expect  or plead not  for a  platform. A Good Idea can stand by its own as it is original and creative but he wants to create an impression to the outer world that my earthen elements struggle to impress him with my ideas. My ideas I know are earthen and they emerge from my earthen origin as  simple forms  to the ignorant sketches of his hypocritical  mind set up. I don’t think I need to ruin the fragrance of my earthen ideas as a show piece game gadget to impress a pretender..
Indian Ocean,
Let my heartbeat speak
 a soft sweet language
better than the sketches
of ignorance
in fragrance of earth

Olive Leaves are stolen  from my collections and the tree was set on fire and a drop of nectar was there on its earthen eastern branch, enough for me to read about Acropolis and Parthenon. 

From the promontory, I walked back and bought a sea shell, I thought for a while what should write on its beautiful sea carved shape..
Write my name.. No.. I got a few with my name..
Tagore.. I said.. he looked at me..
Noble  for my soul..
I am not here to change the origin of my National Anthem and invade  boundaries and peep through the   windows of another human being.
I am here to write..
Write poetry like Tagore..
I need to be alone in my garden otherwise I lose my origin in ruthless invasions…
My dreams i break not...
Ahead of summer
i learned to walk,
In raindrops I fill my soul
I speak in earthen fragrance,
fill my heartbeats in East ocean
Beyond that I worry not…….