Monday, November 19, 2012


I have read about  'The Thinker by Auguste Rodin because his creation 'The Thinker was originally known as 'The Poet"

From  forgotten eras to a world of creative streams, i need to flow..I have opened one such 'world  search' to find more about the creator of 'the Poet'..
there it is written...
"Rodin was sensitive to the controversy surrounding his work, but refused to change his style. "

I remembered what Gayatri said..
It is better to do what is comfortable than to do dramas to please the world around.. 
I cannot keep quiet when my integral elements are tortured and humiliated.. My harshness is against the intentional hurt not against realistic fate..I cannot keep quiet when events are manipulated for convenience..

People who advice me to talk and behave sweetly should be well mannered from deep within and not the ones who hide their greed on sweet talks. People who advice me need to hold their standards first...

Blog of Gayatri sparks in tune with her heartbeats..

I opened Meera's Ocean.. her creations..

There this title got my attention and i have decided to read.. Meera touches my heart in a different way  There is an element of artistic poetry in Meera which i love. I feel she reflects me in many ways.
'How Can it be'

There again union leaders blocked the classes with a 'strike'. They raised slogans and moved around the college holding their bright flag. Lenin or Stalin, Lakshmi does not know who inspires them to call such loud slogans. From Russia and China they learned the basic alphabets of revolution. No one can question them They call for 'strikes' and in most of the times they strike not for students  but to settle scores on behalf of their political leaders.  They block classes against the knowledge seekers like Lakshmi and consider it as the great event of their life.

Lakshmi walked  towards the college Library and as usual there under the Tamarind Tree, a bunch of union leaders gathered, may be to discuss about the next strike.    
Her parents were Teachers and she needed to wait for their return as her mother hated the idea of Lakshmi being alone at home. 

Her main activity on the days of strike is to sit in college library and read as many  books as possible except study materials.

When she was walking towards the main library Benitta came on her way with a heavy book in her hand.. 
She looked very calm and stern but Lakshmi could feel a kind of inspiring charm in her blunt face. She never walked like the one who faced the most humiliating love break up in the college.. 

Benitta created an aura around Lakshmi and like the rays of a fine light of a beautiful star,  guarded Lakshmi and her mind stream to chase away the  funny love boys who venture serious-time pass  with girls..

There this one.. the same one who follows Lakshmi like a shadow..

Hi.. wait for a minute
Lakshmi stared at him
What is your name.. 
Lakshmi stared at him again..
I am Alex.. 
I want to tell you something.. i have written what i want to tell you in this one..
He pulled out one letter and before Lakshmi could do anything snatched her bag and put it in that..
Lakshmi was shocked and hated his intruding nature. She  took back her bag and ran towards the college library..

Tear that.. 
Benitta entered her brain and warned..

Alex had tried all his best to love-time pass with Lakshmi but  Benitta entered her heartbeats to block her from falling in the traps of boys. 

When  Lakshmi thought of love she remembered Sebastian, the boy who hurt, humiliated Benitta to death. 

Lakshmi remembers the day Sebastian asked her to talk to Benitta about his love which Benitta never responded . Sebastian tried all his tricks and even told Lakshmi that he is unable to eat or sleep that his love for Benitta is like a beautiful river and he would love her for life..

Lakshmi never knew why Benitta denied Sebastian that she never wanted opened up her life..

She did not want her friends to know about her unhappy home . She stayed in Boarding and never told us that her father was a married man when he married her mother. His first wife lived with him in the US that he did not even tell his family in Karukachal and  without telling the facts he married again.   He lived in the US with his first wife and  later when Benitta's mother came to know about the facts  her marriage ended in one Divorce. Benitta's mother was married of again as her family members thought of her as a responsibility. Benitta's father was kind to her that he liberally sent dollar cheques and beautiful greeting cards for her happiness that he thought she could buy happiness with money.. In school and college Benitta stayed in Boarding.

Benitta never opened up her unhappy home in front of her friends and  she managed to convince her friends that she is one like them. She treated all her friends  in canteen that she had enough dollar converted money.  She remained peaceful in her own way that she never allowed her unhappy home  to come in between her studies..She wrote beautiful stories and poems. Her only dream was to write..

There entered Sebastian, the destroyer of dreams..
He could not sleep or eat food.... Several times he had asked Lakshmi to bring Benitta to the Tamarind Tree that he could speak to her.. 
Sebastian.. Benitta.. lovers.. 
the whole college sang a symphony...

Benitta believed Sebastian... She told him that after his studies she will ask her dad to take him to the States.

There the forced intermission..

Sebastian does not want to talk to Benitta.. 
Lakshmi wanted to know the reason there Seabastain does not even want to talk Lakshmi..
Sebastian dumped Benitta........
There again the whole college sang a symphony..

Lakshmi could not believe what happened in front of her  and she cursed Sebastian and got terribly annoyed at his behavior and narrated the whole story to her aunt ..
How can it be...?? this guy could not sleep or eat.. .... now how can he change..
What is the reason??.
Benitta did not tell him about her unhappy home and he came to know about through another source and he dumped her for that reason...
How can he do that..... 
he never understood her.....
Lakshmi was furious..
Lakshmi... do not take campus love too seriously.... concentrate on your studies.. 
her aunt advised her..
Lakshmi could not take it that too lightly.... 
Sebastian avoided Lakshmi but Lakshmi could not hold and she stopped him one day and asked with all her courage..
How many more girls you need to score a century..
Sebastian never expected that from Lakshmi as he thought he was the unquestionable cricket hero of college with a mountain like  fan list ..
Sebastian did not utter a word and that made Lakshmi more angry and Lakshmi imposed a ban on him from her life and stopped watching his otherwise popular  game of finishing the opponents with his mean master strokes..    

Benitta showed her strength that she could even take up a breakup..Maybe, that is too less a burden Benitta could carry in her otherwise heavy heart..
Lakshmi opened her bag 
A  piece of folded paper.. Love-time pass letter from Alex.
Tear that...
She heard a voice..
Lakshmi looked around... no one she could find..
Tear that.. 
she could feel Benitta whispering deep inside from her heart.. 
Tear that.. Tear that... 
Lakshmi pulled that paper piece of love and tore into pieces..
Thin paper pieces floated around her like artificial heart shaped toys..

Good Girl.
Benitta entered her heartbeats..

How can it be..??? ...

How can it be...
I wanted to ask...
I wanted to know what happened to Benitta but Meera had closed her story like an art film.. 

There the creator of the Poet to the the Creator of the Thinker. Le Poete to  L Penseur..
How can it be..
Le Poete the Poet... original creation..from origin to one enveloped gloom.. how can it be...
even i do not know......


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